1-24-2012

It is a new year and a new start to the second semester of the MATL program. I have to admit that I am struggling to get going with this. My attitude is bad and my motivation is lacking. The Richard Foster book, "Streams Of Living Water" is really boring me and I am struggling to get much out of it. On top of it all is that I know this is all me. I am sure the book is fine, I know the classes will be good, and I know that I need to hear all that is being talked about, but the fact remains that I am the problem in all of this. My family is very supportive, the church is helping all they can, but I continue to struggle. So I am praying for God to help me, for God to change my attitude, for God to change me. Maybe what I am realizing is that the changes God is making within me are sometimes painful, slow, and very much needed and I am fighting it. So I really need to release everything to God. Mentally I know this but I struggle to obey. Please forgive me.